i havnt had the bad come along in a while so i expected it, but was hoping that maybe i had outgrown it all. but i havnt it all started again last night. i had the dream that means the beginning of the depression the insomnia and suicidal thoughts. im not looking forward to it all, im really hoping that it was a false alarm .

"This is my depressed stance. When you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand. The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better. If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this."
Charlie Brown


"There is a time for departure even when there's no certain place to go"
Tennessee Williams