so for the most part lately i feel lost, not sure of what is what was or what will be, im sorry ill try to cheer up later and maybe write cool blogs like mengtar and ipwnalone but for now i continue depressed hurt and scared of things that might come.


"The last refuge of the insomniac is a sense of superiority to the sleeping world.
leonard cohen"


Yes, I now feel that it was then on that evening of sweet dreams- that the very first dawn of human love burst upon the icy night of my spirit. Since that period I have never seen nor heard your name without a shiver half of delight, half of anxiety. For years your name never passed my lips, while my soul drank in, with a delirious thirst, all that was uttered in my presence respecting you. - Edgar Allan Poe